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hi there, this is me, the owner, CADEN YAP a.k.a the singapore no.1 bastard
birthday falls on 24th MARCH every year


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Tuesday, November 29, 2005 8:05 PM
this morning went to see doctor about my sore eyes, because suddenly, it just became itchy. hais. then i asked for flu medicine too. wahaha. havnt recover yet. sobs. wells, my voice like break liao. lols. tomorrow cannot go to school. sobs. because this sore eyes will spread. hais. but tomorrow, going for seminar. haha. tomorrow is the last day. finally, i'm getting out of the life of having handphone, and yet cannot message the people i want to. and then, for the next 5days, i will not be in Singapore le. wonder how the trip will be like. looking forward to an outing that is after my trip, hope that you can go, and i will be damn happy liao. everytime i think about you, it's the excitement that i'm looking forward too. and this brings upon a smile on my face. thanks, for being there when i needed you, when i needed to be happy. though sometimes, you make me sad too.

sorry,**, i didn't mean to ignore your message. it's just that i cannot contact you because i'm supposed to be overseas. this is a very difficult decision i had to make. i'm really sorry. but i'm doing fine. though i miss you lots. hais. i hope to receive your message tomorrow. asking me to take care when overseas. and i really want you to take care when i'm not around. seriously, other then sorry, i really do not know what to say le. regardless of what, you are still someone special to me. please don't worry.

the light that you are finding is there, it's just whether you want to look for it. ask and it shall be given, seek and you will find it. you came into my life, and caused so much commotions. this prove to me something, you affected me greatly and i let you come in too easily too. whatever it is, i'm not sure if she will message you, but if she does, don't think elsewhere. :) things will never be the same as before. everytime i thought of you, it's all about the sad memories, and it just became heartbreakening for me. i do not know the reason behind your every step, but if i were to think positively, i will be able to understand. take care of yourself too.

tomorrow going to have a training seminar. wahaha. it's going to be fun. Sy Rogers is a cool preacher. going to learn a lot of things and the theme is SEX IDENTITY! lols. people sure think slant about this. wells, we are learning the right things, and not the wrong things OKAY?! haha. can't imagine what he is going to preach about tomorrow, the last time he came, i was like HUH?! can't read his lips, but somehow, the Holy Spirit ministered to me and i managed to get a hang of it. hahas. tommorrow going to end at 10.30pm, sure will over the time slot one. but who cares? lalala. i just hope i can wake up the next morn at 04.30am if not wrong. my flight will be around 7am. so need reach the airport by 6.00am. that's my dad's habit of being early, because he has the same principal as MR YEO. if you are early, you are punctual; if you are punctual, you are late. wahaha.

spend the whole day slacking and thinking of nonsense. lols. really slack a lot liao. i'm so damn lazy that i can't even be bothered to go buy my meals to eat. i rather get starve. haha. i must get the momentums right before school re-open. if not, i will not be able to cope. next year will be a better year, i guess. without much distractions, and most of the time, i will be all alone, but i'm not LONELY! hahas. when you are alone, it is not necessary that you are lonely, but when you are in a group, you might get lonely too. lols. i have a great God that never leaves me lonely because He is forever in my heart. i'm glad that He is, and that He never leaves me. can't imagine what my life will be like without Him. hees. =)

*complicated heart, but nothing is impossible through Christ who strenghten me. i love you, Lord. i will never leave you. i promise*